Today I am thankful for shopping with my bestie. We went to all the stores, bought fun hats and khakis and made friends with everyone working there.

I love talking to strangers. I am very bubbly and I absolutely love engaging in a conversation with someone I don’t know. I like seeing their laughs. And maybe it will be the only time they laugh that day. And that’s why I try and converse with everyone I meet.

Also I am thankful for Ben and Jerry’s. Because it is magical.

Today I am thankful for the progress I have made in the past two years.

I am more confident, have a better self esteem and body image, I manage stress and emotions better, and over all I am more happier than I have ever been.

This time in my life is the first time I can say that I am beautiful despite my acne and stretch marks. This is the first time I can say that life is beautiful despite its ups and downs and occasional thunderstorms. And I am so overjoyed and proud with this discovery.

Daily schedule for the school year

My life is crazy, I know….

  • Wake up 5:30AM. Do some yoga (helps with my anxiety).
  • Hit the shower, get dressed, make-up, contacts, teeth, etc.
  • BREAKFAST TIME!! Protein smoothie, toast w/ pb, bagel…
  • Wait for the bus.
  • Bus ride from 7-7:30ish

School starts at 8AM:

  1. AP United States History
  2. AP Physics
  3. AP English Language and Composition
  4. Ballet
  5. Spanish 2
  6. Chorus
  7. Honors Algebra 2
  8. Study Hall

(Note that I do not have lunch… my plan is to bring healthy snacks in that will add up to a full meal and eat when I can.)

Then we go to extra circulars:

  • School ends @ 2:45pm
  • Go to rehearsal (Musical, Select Chorus). This gets done between 5-7pm.
  • Drive home and have dinner.
  • Homework until 10-12pm
  • Sleep.
  • Repeat.

Also work on some Saturdays (?). I need to call my boss…

Events I will be partaking in this year (*pending):

  • Musical
  • Select Chorus
  • Madrigal Festival/ Burlington Trip
  • Select Chorus School Tours
  • All New England’s Music Festival*
  • All State’s Music Festival*
  • North Country Music Festival (Districts)*
  • LSC Upward Bound
  • Italy Trip 2015

Goodbye sleep. Hello life. 

Today, I am thankful for an awesome weekend with friends, tattoos, fried food, and the beautiful beaches of the cape! 

Today, I am thankful for the wonders of puberty.

(First photo taken December of 2010. Second photo taken July of 2014).

Today, I am thankful for my mom’s awesome friend who works at Les Miserables at The Imperial Theater, and letting me go onstage and awkwardly pose on the set. THANK YOU TIZ!!! :) 

Today, I am thankful for my mom’s awesome friend who works at Les Miserables at The Imperial Theater, and letting me go onstage and awkwardly pose on the set. THANK YOU TIZ!!! :) 

Today I am thankful for a dear friend of mine who I had to say goodbye as he is going to college in a different country.

So:

Dear friend,

Thank you for being the only one who did not over react or shun me when you found out my biggest secret at the time. Thank you for hugging me for almost 15 minutes straight when I felt completely damaged. Thank you for letting me into your group of friends, if only for a short time. Thank you for the laughs on the days when I really needed them. Thank you for just being there and making me feel okay, whether you realized it or not.

8tracks radio | The Dumbass Committee

Today I am thankful for my two best friends, Lyds and KT. I have been friends with them since middle school and we have been through so much stuff. I owe them some of my best moments, and thank them for getting me out of some of my worst.

We have called our trio “The Dumbass Committee.” And it came to me that we didn’t have a playlist which doesn’t make sense because we are all in one form or another addicted to music and use it as a way of self expression. So I took some favorite songs of ours and put it in a playlist. 

Today I am thankful for stage makeup, costumes, friends, and making a complete ass of myself on stage.

Today I am thankful for stage makeup, costumes, friends, and making a complete ass of myself on stage.

Today I am thankful for book thievery and comments made anonymously on the pages of novels.

I never returned my copy of Catcher in the Rye to my teacher because 1. I forgot 2. I did not like this teacher, and so I decided that I didn’t want to go and drop said book off and 3. It’s a damn good book and I really enjoyed it.

One of the things about this copy is a past student had written comments in it. These comments were very lengthy and intelligent. But also silly. They mentioned inside jokes and friends, they even wrote down a phone number with an area code from a state on the other side of the country. The thing I love about this is that I have no idea who this person is. What gender they are, what race they are, what religion they practice, political beliefs, sexual orientation, what their favorite t shirt is, or what their name is. And no one who reads the copy will ever figure it out. All that is remains is this persons thoughts and no one can pass judgement on a pre conceived whim after meeting this person because they never will.

I like to think this person wrote in the book to be a rebel against society, but did not want to do any permanent damage on the world.