Today I am thankful for dreaming, and the little things that other people do or say that keeps the dreamer in me alive.

Today I am thankful for hell week.

For those who don’t know, “hell week” (also known as “tech week”) is the week before opening night. Basically, everyone kind of realizes all of the stuff that we said we would do later has to be done and it is a crazy rush and the rehearsals are very late (I didn’t get home till midnight on Monday) and super fun.

But it is so crazy and everyone just looks like a hot mess and says stupid sleep deprived stuff and smells of BO and we are a mess of emotions and it is horrible and wonderful at the same time. You just kind of realize that what is going on is special. Our director told us that we should do as much as we can do to make the show great, but that there will never be a scenario in which these people will be doing this exact play exactly how it is done now. And that made me think… It was a very “seize the day” type moment.

I’ve known some of these people for almost three years and it has been wonderful, and the new people I have met are so kind and talented. And the moment is fleeting and will be gone much sooner than I want it to be. So I sit and I laugh with everyone, and I try to hold on to that feeling of tired and happy and excited and nervous and loved for as long as I can. And the amount of tired and happy and excited and nervous and loved that goes on in this one week is so incredibly great. I love the sweaty hugs and inside jokes and accidentally breaking the set and just being there acting. I absolutely love this time of a production, even if it does sometimes feel like “hell.”

I’m going to a museum with my family today! It has been awhile since I have had free time so today should be a nice break. I also love museums. Especially this one. It is a children’s science museum so it has a lot of interactive stuff in it. Meaning, I can touch all the things and no one will yell at me for it!

I have started doing yoga on daily basis and I absolutely love it. It is very calming and rewarding. Your body feels very strong even if you can’t quite do something as well as the pros. I would like to continue this exercise.

Right now, I am just doing a couple of sun salutations and ending in child’s pose. I’m not sure where to go from there but I will figure it out.

Oh- I also figured out what I want my career to be, but that’s a post for another time. :)

Today, I am thankful for my adorable little kitty (and all cats).

She is insane and wonderful and purrs a lot and just a happy cat.

Love you pebs!

Today I am happy about car music.

Not the deep emotional stuff. But the catchy kind. The radio songs that everyone knows… Somewhat.

I mean, we all know the chorus and we mumble through the versus and no one is trying to sound good we are just having fun. And the speakers are blaring and people are laughing and saying if they remember if from their childhood.

I like that kind of stuff. It is a simple enough concept I guess. But it really makes life a bit more fun. A bit more light hearted. It brings people that may not be the best of friends together so they can enjoy their ride in a tin can for an hour. Just stuff like that.

I have this little scar above my eye from falling out of a shopping cart when I was three. 

The memory is faint, however the scar is right there above my eyebrow. It has become my face. It is a pain in the butt to pluck my eyebrows in that perfect supermodel arch simply because the scar blends with the brow sometimes and it is therefore impossible to change it. 

The thing I like about scars is that they are hardships. When we are first given a new scar, it hurts a lot. And then it heals and it is still there, marking your body like a signature. But at some point, you forget the details of the scar. Yes, the scar will still be there, but the memory of receiving the scar won’t be, and there will not be any pain surrounding the scar. 

I compare this a lot to mental scars. And it’s uplifting knowing that something someone said that was hurtful will no longer be remembered. Just another scar along with so many others rattling inside of my brain, and forming a look based on their position. Be it on the eyebrow, or above it.

I have this little scar above my eye from falling out of a shopping cart when I was three.

The memory is faint, however the scar is right there above my eyebrow. It has become my face. It is a pain in the butt to pluck my eyebrows in that perfect supermodel arch simply because the scar blends with the brow sometimes and it is therefore impossible to change it.

The thing I like about scars is that they are hardships. When we are first given a new scar, it hurts a lot. And then it heals and it is still there, marking your body like a signature. But at some point, you forget the details of the scar. Yes, the scar will still be there, but the memory of receiving the scar won’t be, and there will not be any pain surrounding the scar.

I compare this a lot to mental scars. And it’s uplifting knowing that something someone said that was hurtful will no longer be remembered. Just another scar along with so many others rattling inside of my brain, and forming a look based on their position. Be it on the eyebrow, or above it.

Today, I am thankful for teachers. Not just any teacher, but that certain group of teachers that actually care about their jobs and try to form relationships between every single student. Being a teacher is obviously a very hard job and a very important one. Parents are the variable in childhood, while education is mostly a constant. Meaning, parents can be absent or involved or anywhere in-between, but in an ideal world the education opportunities for their children is equally attainable. So teachers and schools provide us with our constant.

Anyways, I am glad that their are teachers who have become more like friends to me. They share their anecdotes and their education, and legitimately enjoy working with kids. I have great admiration for them.

I really love being an Upward Bound student. I have made some of the best friends there and have so many crazy and fun memories. I am thankful for the opportunities being in this program has provided me with. Also they give me free food. That’s pretty sweet too!

This morning I am thankful for friends who do awesome stuff.